the reason i said yes when nick asked me out

so u most likely read the last blog and said "i thought she likes landon?". well my friend.... i realized he only thinks of me as a friend and i have to move on. i cant keep pining over him until im like 19 and hes 20 and he gets married to my bff and im the maid of honor at their wedding! no! i will always love him.....but i cant stay single forever just for him. and i havent had a bf for a really long time just cuz ive always been after the guy who i cant have... *tear*